THE NEW GIRL

Hello there! Can you believe how fast time flies?!

Gezz...It's May already! And we almost in the middle of 2012! Crazy!

And well, by the way I haven't tell you guys my goals this year. So, this post is around my 2012 resolutions. But wait! before I list them , let me flash back to passed years :)

When I look back at years before, I realize that I appeared with some different personality (because of different problems and life challenges). At some years I spent far too much time caring what other people think (this is happened when I was kid), the other years I was busy with love and shit matter, with some boys, ex and crush, haha oh, no! I'm not proud to type that sentence. The year 2000- 2006 seemed to be the brightest year in my whole life, 12 y/o till 18 y/o is my golden age, I was the most cheerful girl ever, that's what people said. And I miss that moment so much, it was the time when I spent much time studying and being the best in my class. The other years is the years when I was ill and down and just be quite, it happened because I never anticipated just how wrong life style can easily effect my health. 

Life is hard, we cannot always get something we want easily. If you want it, work for it! So that I have to list down my resolutions and keep it in mind that I have to do what I had list here.

Well, my 2012 resolutions are mostly about self caring and self management.

1. Every week there should be fruits and vegetables eaten
2. Sleep 7 hours everyday ( include saturday and sunday) 
3. Keep 4.2 liter of water each day 
4. Do my best for everything I do, to work, to help, and to do everything else, so I wont be regret in the end. 
5. Finish and accomplish what I start. 
6. Keep honest to my own self, keep close to God, always read Qur'an (at least once a week), pray 5 times a day no matter how busy I am and pray sunnah at least once a week. 
7. Always praying before sleep 
8. Try no to be extravagant anymore! Buy stuffs only when needed, buy best quality of shoes and clothes with longer use. So I don't have to waste money to buy many easily- break stuffs. 
9. Give my self the best things. Best stuffs, best food, and best love. 
10. Don't hurt my body for fashion or style demand. Love my self more, respect my self more, accept my self the way I am no matter what!
11. Try hard not to be angry and moan easily. 
12. Keep running my little accessory business (even in very little time) then keep the money. 
13. More money saving for future need (may be car or house?? ooh..I HOPE :D !!) 
14. More studying about fabric and pattern drafting and all about clothing design, Amiiin :)
15. Share happiness by buying cakes every month for the family :D

There are so many things happened to me and there are also so many times when I was hit and cracked and I need long time to stand up again. And I remember once my friend, Siska said to me that "You might be the strongest girl I know"

I was enormously flattered when I heard this, but it's made me think a lot. Her words made me think that I might be doing something right in my life.

All the crazy problems I had passed in my life make me realize how much I worth to receive the best and try to give the best to others. I learn to respect and accept my self completely. Why the hell do we care what other people think, anyway? People who judge you are unlikely to be kindred spirits. If others want to talk about you and spread whatever crazy lies they can concoct and tell anyone who will listen, they can go right ahead. But just don't give a shit anymore.
If something upsets you or seems wrong, I'm going to say so ... and then try to move on. I'm not going to pretend to be someone I'm not, but I'm also not going to dwell on those moments of disappointment. I'm going to focus on spending more time with people who make me smile, laugh, or give me things to ponder and learn. Life is too short for boring people. And I'm going to worry less, I realize that I'm about to be 24 years old and there is little about my personality that is going to change at this point. This is the time to be THE NEW GIRL!! Time to love our self, try to stay health and do the best that we can. My closest friends love me for who I am: emotional, outgoing, fun and spirited and those are the people I care about anyway. 

And Horraaayy...! Finally this is the photo shoot part! lol.:D :D

As always, inspiration comes from many things.. Today's outfit inspired by nothing, but look! when I was searching on google, I found these style, people might think that i was inspired by this picture..

1. Petite celebrities Denim Jacket

 

2. Got the inspiration for this post tittle from the book I recently read. 

love this book so much^^

Denim Bolero: NAOMI CAMPBELL JEANS / Blouse: unbranded/ Watch: GUESS

Shoes: VICARI/ Black Legging: 3D GOAL

Happy Saturday by the way! Holiday is my favorite day because I have time just to live my own life the way I want to :D

Cheers!!**

Blooming Dreams

Thanks God everything is very much okay till now. I was trying to learn more knowledge from my new job, and I like doing pattern drafting better than making some technical data in front of the computer. Alhamdulillah I have a chance to work in a design department and also have a chance to do pattern drafting. The pattern making and pattern drafting is the most important part in creating a cloth, it's just amazing realizing that I used to hate doing pattern drafting when I was in university because it was hard, but now I just enjoy it,lol. My biggest hope here is to get more clothing knowledge. The pattern making is the most important part of creating a cloth,  the design of course is the power of creating beautiful clothes, but how can we make it true without pattern making and drafting? 

Mr. Iwan was right, we have to figure out the pattern to make a clothes, to know whether our design is possible to create or not. And it is the first time I work with a knowledge oriented not money oriented.  So, when I was asked to learn and do pattern drafting, I don't mind. I don't mind at all. I even hope to do this longer. Really, I didn't feel like I am working now, I feel like studying and I hope this feeling is forever. I have to pursue my dream little by little, I hope here is the right place to bloom my dream bigger and maturer.  And by the way, as you know I love drawing like crazy, now I am wishing that I can buy something like wacom haha. I have to try hard to practice coreldraw as well because it's going to be a part of my whole work.  I am a beginner in design field, there are many things I didn't know so that I have to learn harder. I believe all the people here are professional designer. As an amateur, there's nothing I could do except learning by doing. 

I notice every single one of the people in my work area. There are many different characteristic and it's very interesting to investigate (as always), lol. Of course there are some moment when I feel like bored and just shut up at all. I look at the girl who was sitting beside me, she was editing word "Mermaid" on her computer, then I take a look to the man who was sitting on my right side, he was busy changing the music. We listened to perhaps, perhaps, perhaps by Cake.  Everyday I go to the office early in the morning, it was cool outside, I can hear the wind chimes from a house and the jackets worn everywhere. Two weeks ago were the beginning of my new job. Congratulations to me for never hearing the yelling voice (so far). And aahh.... after all  I finally have my weekend, free time :) :) :).

By the way I got the inspiration for my photo shoots from Jasmine van den Bogaerde's cover album, She's an English musician also known by her stage name Birdy. I love her dressing style, so warm and chic and cool and classic and wow! I just love it!!

And also I have cute butterflies and pink flower as another photo shoot's inspiration :)

# Inspiration 1

# Inspiration 2

# Inspiration 3

~I hope you enjoy and that you have a good rest of your week. :)~

 

 Knitting Top: from Japan/ Skirt: ATMOSPHERE/ 

Sister's fuscia socks/ Ankle Boots: INDIE

And oh! I join the give away from Izzi (Metallic Paws). She's one of my favorite fashion blogger. I adore her style and love almost of her stuffs,lol. It suprising me when she open her giveaway, because you know what?? The stuffs are tottally cool! That is the box bag I've been wanting for so long! Crazy! I really hope to win this bag!

And for you who are interesting to join, please click here: Metallic Paws: 400 Followers Giveaway. You better hurry because the deadline is Monday 7th of May 2012 at 12.01am (Eastern Standard Time)!!

 wish me luck :)

My last lazy week

Hello again there! How's life? Oow..It's quite a long time no see you all guys! hope you're doing okay. 

I have no news right now. My activity just about making accessor, hanging out and all that. Still a jobless lady, hahaha! But too sad because tomorrow I am going to attend an interview with a company (it seems like they are going to accept me) and this week is going to be my last lazy week, Ough! :(

I know, I know...I used to be an active person, and well, I love to be challenged. But I don't know, now some things are just different. I just have no lust in working anymore since I know haw hard it is to face the case and the people. Man, that's too hard! Too bad! However, yeah,,now the fact is.. there are 2 company need me now. One is a garment company and another is Bank. Hush..hush..don't tell me that it's good or  that I am lucky or something like that, because I am NOT! Yes, people, really not! Uh God, How could this happen to me again? It's so hard to choose among two things! It become so hard because two of those things not only have good possibilities but also bad possibilities! An evil sight! Yeah, I can feel it! An evil sight!

Come on now just stop complaining! Sorrrrry guys for my hiatus now I am back again with complain on the opening. Bad eh? sorry. :p

Well, days ago, I found SSSuper cool picture on tumblr.com and it became my fave gif picture on the net! Ever!! How genius the creator was..! Oh..gosh this is sooo...hmmm...inspiring :) hehehe

 Taking a pose at my sister's room :)

 Old glasses, my Mom bought me when I was in elementary school

 My favorite Mary Jane shoes (too bad it's breaking)

 Heart ring & Red Ruby ring from Sauri :D

 See you soon! Kisses**

May be It's some kind of prove that Pramudita is not a loyal person :p

I found this cute pattern. Ooh..so in love with the colors!

Hello there!

Yes, people! New header, new blog name and new background, yayy..!! It was happened a long time ago when I wanted to have a blog with my name on the header. But I am not find the right name yet till I decided to use "PRAMUDITA'S PANDORA'S BOX". The reason behind this name is because Pandora's box is my very favorite tale. My Mom told me the story in 1998 when I was in elementary school, she also gave me the magazine (which publish the story) to read. And since the day I read it, I was so in love with it and Pandora's Box tale have been having a special place in my heart. I used to wish my name was Pandora, lol. Well, though my name isn't Pandora, but the best part of my name is it begin with the same alphabet: P!!! ^,^.

I think "Pramudita's Pandora's Box" is the most suitable name for my blog mainly because it containing my name :). It's the 3rd time I change my blog's name after "Cheese Cake and Water Lover", then " Secrete Interviu". I was trying to create a perfect name so that this blog can reflects me so much. But because the names before are not really fit to my heart, so they always give me a little idea to change names (besides I get bored with them) hehe. Yea, have to admit that I always easily get bored to several things!

So, I hope you guys love my new blog's name as much as I do, and please leave me your sweet comments :)

This is the magazine I read in 1998:

 Pretty floral box, I got it as a souvenir.

Wish u have a great day, folks!!

Climbing a mountain

Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. It just yesterday I said to all of you guys how happy I am (about my accessory project and how my life going that time with no pressure). Today everything just turn around 180 degrees opposite, I feel like I am falling down and hit the bricks so hard that I can't even breath and think anymore. Another pressure come again, from parents, from my own self. 

My parents want me to get a job and work, while me? I want to start my own business. My Mom is okay about starting business but she want me to work first, at least for one or two years. I honestly agree with my Mom, But not for my Dad. My Dad want me to work only. He doubt my ability in business, I know it. I don't like it when my Dad isn't giving any approval for being a business woman just because he thought that I know nothing about life. When parents said that they have many more experience than me (the children), well I have nothing to say! Yes, captain. I'll do what you ask me to do! 

You know.. arguing with parents is so damn hard to face and I have no place to share except to this blog, I don't even have a shoulder to cry on. Every night I pray to God, asked him to give me the best. I am not asking for a specific dream job, for a future husband, for business or else. I just asked to be simply given the best, the suitable job or business that I can run well, and above all, health is the first thing I always asked. I never know that my life would be this hard, I cry very often, feeling angry and sad at the same time. I can't tell my mom how's my feeling right now, because she's very sensitive. She's gonna get a heart attack or else, she would stress out and having head ache a whole day if she know how unhappy I am now. And the true reason why I can't tell my Mom is because we are not really in the same direction right now.

You.Are.Amazing.

As. you. are.
Stronger than you know.
More beautiful than you think.
Worthier than you believe.
More loved than you can ever imagine.
Passionate about making a difference.
Fiery when protecting those you love.
Learning. Growing. Not alone.
Warm. Giving. Generous.
Quirky. Sexy. Funny. Smart.
Flawed. Whole. Scared. Brave.
And so, so, so.much.more.

Be Strong. Be Confident. Be You.

There are always times I wasn’t.

A time when I didn’t think I was worth much. A very confident and happy child turned into a rebellious, angry teenager who couldn’t see how amazing and wonderful I was and would never have believed it even if you told me. (my parents said to me how hurt, disappoint and sad they are looking at me like this). But hey! what can I do now? The effort of making my parents satisfied and proud of me is as high as a mountain and harder to climb. I always try to make them proud, a whole life I try to make them happy and proud. But they never satisfied enough, especially my Dad. I got scholarship, I won the 1st place of recycling contest, people praise my skill in drawing, writing and making craft, people tell me superb, I got the first and second rank in Junior High, I even passed the biology olympiad at school level and still get rank in Senior High (although it isn't the 1st), I can even get job easily after graduated from the university and many other achievement I got. Well, Everything I do is never good enough for him. There are always things that make my parents feel dissatisfied. There are always be. Sigh.

Sad.

It took times of being a grown up girl to get a strong confidence, self worth and self strength in a situation of life like this. And there are still days that I get caught up in challenging situations, where I really have no option.:(

Ahh..I am feeling very tired right now. Just believing that even though we have bad days, it’s not a bad life at all....

And guys, by the way I changed my hair color! :) not really a different color, it still dark color. You can see my new hair color when we meet again in the other post :D

Also bought several pretty things:

1. New hair dye from L'oreal. 

 2. I change my shampoo. 

I used to use Rejoice, now I am trying L'oreal and It feel good on my hair :)

3. Dainty mechanic pencil from S. Just pretty! 

The crown and the pearl?? Oww..come on! That's really me!! :D

 4. Maybelline lipstick and lip liquid. I am a big fan of lipstick and yesterday I bought this. the reasons why I love Maybelline product are because it's great in my skin complexion and affordable :)

Everything I love is vintage and it smells pretty :)

"Fortunately I own a vintage brain, and I am alive and well in the 21st century, still making records, still working at an intense pace and most of all, still having fun doing it."

Hello there! How's the earth treatin' you all? I hope u are all fine and happy, because yayy! I am absolutely happy right now!! :D Lately I've been busy creating accessories, not only for my online store, but also now for the people near by (because I get many order from them). I really enjoy designing and making accessories and since I haven't found a clean out of old and unsold stuffs (which are finally consider as "unsold mistery" categori, lol), I decided to take advantage by reuse some of the materials. Can you believe that I had stuffs in my store that originally created in 2008?? Crazy! Time flies when you have so much to do and all that, apparently.. :)

Yesterday, I finished the newest collection of vintage necklace. You know, things cross to my mind while thinking about vintage is something like: birdy, wings, fairy, old beads, caramel colors, classic roses and something like that. You'll see how pretty it is when some flying animals hanging on your chest with flowers and any other unique shapes. I will show you some of the item with vintage feels and vibes, and I want to make sure you see:

All vintage series only @ IDR 20.000 for promotion price^^

May be some of you need to buy a gift for a birthday friend of family, you can check out many other collection directly HERE :) 

And If any of you interested to buy, you can TEXT me: 085659755725

Heart of the hunter

R.L Stine was so rad! and i was enthralled by all his book. They are so good that I always feel I had to wait until the new book released. The story is so brilliant, it makes me waiting for the show to start. I feel like I was watching the story going and around through the window glass, it's very clear on my mind how the story goes (according to my imagination). So superb! Plus I have to get rid of the feeling that someone must intellect and make sense and get real. One of my favorite is Heart of the hunter, this book had boiling me over. When I was reading this I would just like to babble about how much I like voodoo, curse, tribal ornament and something like that :)

#Inspiration 1:

This book is one of that converted me with it's cultural tribes. I just imagining how the girl ( in the story) would come up to me in real life and said she can read my mind, :D Yeah, I am in love with Indian cultural tribe especially with the fact that Indian is close to wolfs! amazing uh? yes, yes, yes it's amazed me a lot! wolf is my fave animal ever (although I don't even dare to touch it,lol) , to me wolf represent a strength, thru the eyes  it can see the heart and the soul of all creature even humans. I take a million times to read the magnificent of this animal and the indian odd ritual, and I feel like I have a huge passion to enter the world of ritualism :). Yes, Indian did an vary odd ritual and it's so damn cool, you know? Well, RL. Stine's stories freaked me out at the moment and amazed me at the same time. 

#Inspiration 2:

By the way, below are my latest photo shoot inspired by Heart of the hunter story (yayy!), which resulted in Indian leather ornaments and accessories with furs and tiny shout of modern Indian girl, eheh :)

....look at the sun, feel the wind, touch the green grass and be one to nature. It's my free time.

My blouse is definitely nordic pattern which makes a nordic vibe happening here, making it more appropriate to match with Indian instrumental and colors.

Studio.L Blouse/ Kalimantan necklace from S/ 

All other accessories by VOCUS accessories/ Unbrabded jeans/ Meijiaiang shoes